Growing up, I never could understand the concept of grace. I didn't understand what I was supposed to feel if I were in a state of grace. It was such an ephemeral concept and I just couldn't wrap my head around it. I was in my early 40's when I finally understood.
I learned about grace in the worst of times. It was during a time when I was afraid of losing everything that was important to me. My relationship with my children, house, and my money. It was a very scary time.
It was August 8, 2008. 8-8-8. I was driving to Albuquerque when my angel said, "You can no longer live by readings, its time for you to live by grace." I must tell you, I freaked. Being highly intuitive my whole life I read the energies around me. I could read them 6 months to two years in advance to know what was coming, but during this time, I couldn't feel a thing. It was as if someone turned off my antenna.
For two weeks I couldn't feel a thing. And, I sure didn't understand grace. I took a walk in the park to clear my head one particularly hard day and told God, "You are going to have to show me what grace is because I don't understand what you are talking about!" The next thing I knew I had a mystical experience right there in the park. God showed me a clear tube surrounding me that went into the ground about a foot or so and went up into the sky as far as I could see. God said, "Bring your children, house, and bank account to me," and directed me to the center of my chest. God was with me, in me, all around me. The Presence was was so strong that as I brought all those things into my center and gave them to the Light, one by one, they were taken up.
My heart and mind were no longer racing. There was a sense of peace and tranquility I had only known a few times prior to this. A deep, abiding peace filled my entire being. I finished my walk and faced what needed to be faced. The emotional and mental strength and courage I needed to have a difficult conversation with my ex-husband arose out of nowhere, so I had the conversation, and waited.
Within a few days the issue was resolved.
I had to have the courage to accept grace and in return, I was gifted with more courage.
There are times in our life where all the grace in the world cannot change a circumstance. It is in the darkest of times when the change we want is not possible, these are the times we need to accept grace the most. It has been my experience that whenever I make a request of the light, the call is answered in some way. Asking for grace is asking for an experience of Divine Presence. Not knowing the outcome that Divine Presence will bring, is the biggest hurdle. When we are in pain or fear, it is hard to trust something as ephemeral as grace. But you will never know if you don't ask to know.
To all my friends who may be facing dark and painful times, I pray grace for you, and will hold a space for you to receive the courage that grace brings.
All My Love,
The apparent apocalyptic geologic events, rising sea levels, fires, and political troubles, all have us feeling overwhelmed. It is easy in the face of such drastic change to feel overwhelmed, shut down, or even quit trying to make any kind of impact. The feeling of helplessness seems to be escalating all around us. As an intuitive and sensitive, I literally feel it all around me.
to The Great Shift, everyone has been waiting for it since before 2012 and ever since then, we have been waiting for it some more. It has finally arrived in 2020 and it is really kicking our individual and collective butts. There is a good reason for it too. It has become pretty obvious that the great unveiling of light doesn't always feel so light and fluffy. Most of the time it does, but when it doesn't, man, it's like running full force into a brick wall you didn't see coming. Many of us that have been talking about this for years have said, "Hey folks, its not all rainbows and butterflies." STOP spiritually bypassing your inner suffering. Stop bypassing or repressing your fears. The time to put our spiritual head in the sand is over and its time to start doing your inner work. Even if you have done your inner work, you may still be facing this time of transition with a sense of love, wonder and excitement, accentuated by moments of intense panic, fear, or grief.
We are all being asked to step into a new life. A life beyond our old past life or even this life traumas. We are being called to MOVE ON from the old control dramas and MOVE INTO the new exanded experiences calling to us. I personally have resisted this call like the plague because I could feel the magnitude of it, without seeing the details of the personal changes I could feel coming. It has been like walking blind folded, with PTSD.
I found the key to this forward movement. I gave myself permission to decide what is important to me. To get very clear about what I want to do and then have the courage to make the plans. Sometimes those plans may not make sense to others, but I can't let them go. There is a voice inside of me that wants so badly to be expressed. There is a love inside of me that wants to radiate. But I have been in fear. I would start a project and then stop. I just couldn't figure out what was preventing me from being consistent about things that were so important until I felt deeply enough into the experience of it. There was a deep fear of being exposed and the fear I would be killed, or fail and have to sell everything I own to survive. The old past life experiences came back to haunt me like nothing had before. We are in a time of cleansing LIFETIMES of disempowerment! Of course it is horribly uncomfortable!
The need to survive and be accepted by a tribe were arising out of the collective and my own cellular memory to be faced and it was TOUGH! But, I made a decision. If I was going to live, then I was going to live and love to a whole new level. My life, and I bet yours too, is calling you to a whole new level of being with what arises in you.
So here is what I found is important to me:
I want to spend more time with my family. So I planned the trips.
I want a radio show again. So I am starting a Blog Talk radio show called Homo Spiritus starting next week.
I want to teach people how to connect and be present with each other, so we can love each other to wholeness, to a whole new level! I want my coaching school to cater to people who want to ground the nature of Spirit into their own, and their client's daily lived reality. So I am starting over this Spring with new classes.
I want to live in my home and enjoy my trees and rocks. So I am staying, even if it means I do one repair at a time instead of doing it all at once.
I want my health back. So I am slowly adding new routines to support my health.
But in my case, I am doing it all slowly. I am planning it one step at time and executing the plan in stages. If it takes me all year and into next, that is what it takes.
This is a whole new way for me to move in the world. I used to have to get everything decided and done at once. I had to push through and forge ahead even if I didn't have all the plans or resources put together yet. The more I had to face that life hadn't quite turned out the way I had hoped over the last few years, the harder I pushed past my limits, and suffered the consequences. But no more.
Now, my love will allow me to relax and trust Spirit to be here now, in the planning stage and in the smaller baby steps stages. My whole new way of loving is to relax, trust, love some more, take measured action, trust some more, and be open to new opportunities as they arise.
Comment below and tell me what is your calling you to a whole new level of? How are you wanting to love to a whole new level?
All my Love
My winter break is almost over. While I did work some through the last three weeks, most of my time has been invested in enjoying the company of my daughter, son-in-love, and two precious grandsons. There is nothing so precious and fascinating as watching children grow and develop their own sense of self. Each in their own way, exploring and experimenting with the world, testing the limits, and working really hard to find a way around them!
In their innocent play, they demonstrate the ability to put forth effort towards what is important to them. They experiment with different techniques to get what they want. They delight in the simple accomplishment of each step, and then happily move on to the next without holding on to what they just accomplished. At the end of the day they are tired, a good tired. They are tired from living fully and out loud, unashamed.
Not yet programmed to understand failure, they just move on to something else if what they want doesn't work out. Yes, maybe with a tear or two, but they do move on.
Being with them these last three weeks has refreshed my soul and brought my attention back to the simplicity of effort. How lovely to be remembered how simple effort is when we don't hold on to the outcome.
4 Simple Lessons from My Grandchildren - The Adult Version
1. Do what is important. In adult terms, know what is important, prioritize your list, schedule your tasks on your calendar. Do them.
2. Experiment with different solutions. Do what works, forget the rest.
3. Enjoy and appreciate each step. It helps you stay present in the moment and strengthens your central nervous system.
4. Effort is worth it in the end. Even if you have to try again, get frustrated, and have to move on to another task, the accomplishment is worth it.
Blessings for a wonderful week for simplicity!
All My Love,
Yes, we are in an intense and heavy time, all over the world right now. I know a handful of people who are not experiencing intense shifts in their lives right now, and even they are saddened and deeply concerned about the fires and destruction of life in Australia, and many other national and international concerns. It can all be very scary and concerning. Each of these world events and the intense experiences in our lives are always a call for love.
In my own life, I am facing a necessary home renovation I wasn't planning for, healing my body from a recent healing crisis, and dealing with the learning curves of running a new business in a new market. Last year was rough, my truths about myself and the world were tested. There was still a personal lesson to learn about how I prevent my own peace, and I am so grateful my spiritual helpers made sure I would not carry old baggage into the new era! But before the gratitude came, I had to be willing to face a couple of inner demons, be willing to focus on my goodness, and slow down to listen to my inner wisdom. I refused and rejected unkindness and manipulation. And most of all, learned how to trust my gut.
This is the attitude that will help us all now, look upon the current world condition, or the personal challenges and shifts as a call to love and a call to wise inspired action. A call to pay attention to what had been ignored. A call to being dedicated to finding your place in the world and your special function in it. A call to have unconditional positive regard for yourself and others. To be dedicated to staying aligned to truth, beauty, and wisdom to help you face and reconstruct what was destroyed so that the false beliefs and images of yourself and the world that contributed to the destruction, have no part in the new.
You are all so much stronger, intelligent, and beautiful than you can possibly know. Take time in quiet reflection and spiritual practice to access that beautiful you. No matter what you are facing in the reconstruction of your world, you do not do it alone. You have seen and unseen helpers with you at all times. You know who they are. They cannot do the work for you, but they are there to strengthen and support you while you do the heavy lifting of creating a new world.
Please take care of yourselves during these tumultuous times. Please take time out to enjoy the simple aspects of life, and the people who love you. By staying focused on doing what is right in front of you right now, with love and courage, everything else will fall into place in its own right timing and order.
All My Love,